What mood are you in?

Drained. I just DMed an 8 hour gaming session with a bunch of newbies - it was a hoot and a half, but draining.

bad. crappy. angry. apathetic (yes, I know those are kinda clashy).

I'm just tired. Hanging out on my ipad while Nick plays on the Xbox..today is a lazy day. I start my last three months of nursing school tomorrow.

Sleepy and a little bit annoyed.

Oh...bad days? I kind of feel bad cause I did get a ride at the last moment. Might have had a let down or two but nothing unexpected.

I'm excited! getting back to gaming tonight hopefully after my game patches.

anxious and a little worried, I just heard a gun shot outside and it was REALLY close. I can't wait to move out of this neighborhood.

Happy

s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d and nervous.

relaxed

Calm. Watching facebook drama.

Exhausted despite sleep.

I am bored and looking forward to getting this week over.

A bit stressed and drained and upset but not raging or anything.
Imzadi is going through allot right now, trying to find her place in an atmosphere that denies past abuse leading to unhealthy repression. That's the the short analytic side of saying what's going on. it's more emotional than that.
So i'm staying away from threads where I'd pick up on any emotion. Partly so it doesn't cause me to make connections to things of an emotionally overwhelming nature;partly so I can reflect on what shes going through without other peoples laundry getting in the way (that reference is for me); and partly so I don't go and rip anyone a new one who is either insensitive to or contributes to that kind of abuse.

Earlier I had to go settle something at the office here at the apartment complex, making sure that I am indeed listed as co-head. the way it's presented on the forms is weird and I still have my doubts. However, I said what I needed to and if they aren't honorable after I have talked with them I wont feel bad up and moving on because they will have broken their word. Parts of the contract are more clear, other's arent... but I can show inconsistency. Somethings they say are ok and other things the contract says they arent. bottom line I dont trust them.

I'm worried that I wont be given equal voice as co-head of the apartment and that it will affect my credit if damages are done. I'm not the lease, and liable for damages. I'd just rather not have to take disputes to court if they happen. The other co-head doesn't care to follow the lease rules. I have to end up being the bad guy and am not respect as co-head of the household. I also know I'm not taken seriously be management because of things she has said when I'm not around. I also agree that the leases are too restrictive but there's other affordable place around here and so I cant afford to get kicked out. So this is all very frustrating for me. If I didn't have to live here I wouldn't- and I kind of got conned into doing so because I didn't want to really move in with this person but they would home been homeless so I cosigned and risked my credit. They were supposed to pay me back what I had on the deposit and provide transportation so that I could eventually move out. That didn't happen. Housing around here is expensive to, and no matter what calculations I do I cant find a place I'd be able to afford. I could move out of town but if I do i'll probably be leaving the state. I've got a community here i don't want to leave either. However there's also other places calling to me and if can get back for Samhain and Beltaine each year I just might move.

I found out this person wasn't honest to me about their income at the time either. They were making twice as much as was reported and didn't even need my deposit... according to new findings so I'm feeling a bit used.

And Imzadi, she needs to figure out what kind of community and support she wants and go after it. I do care for her very deeply but she has chosen another path and i can't always be there to tell her what she should do. I do support her in her path she needs to learn how to pathwork without me because i'm not there and there's only so much I can do for her if she is choosing to swim in certain waters.